Wednesday, August 16, 2006





That Last Call !


vinni ther's a kal for you..vinni...vinni...............
i am so much used to this voice of my roomies...and it alwys gets intense and bit louder whn thers sm gal on other side...
Comming yaar....the mobile dispalys a name...****** calling ..its her..its her .so finlly c has kalled....i hv been waiting
for this kal for so long....
But no i wont make it so easy for her....i wont .....from last 7 mnthsss c has troubledd..me i will make her say “sorry“ atleast 17 timess
thn i will thnk....and then c will say vinni sry vinni sry... and then after fuelling my dyiing ego to optimum level...“oki..i forgive ya“..it would be fun...
i'l have to cntrl my tone also makin it as indifrrnt and emotionlesss as if talkin to customare care executive oki... i pick up the phn....

Hello....hello..hello..silence on he other side........silence sucks at least fr me..and silence frm a gal
definiteellyy means that c hs gt lotss to say....Hello! who's ths....i pretend that that i hv forgotten her numbeer...hel--heel heelo....Oh God thousands bells ringing
in my head..this is the sound..sound f angel...her voice...remb those days whn v used to spend hrs talkin......continuing with the conversation
vin!ni control urself dnt let ur emotions overflow..i reply bak ..ya..who's ths...and thn kame the reply...****** vinnni..
ya! i go silent...she asks in a slow,shaky voice how are you? i felt like tellin her hw much i missed her..how much i wishd to kal her,,how i hv been dyinn...
but no i gtcha pretend..i rpl bak..what do you expect....and ths rpl of mine was blow on her...hwzz the wrk goin on?What crap who cares abt the sukkin wrk..

y is c askn me such weird questions?why kant c come to the point and say ki "vinni i am srry and i wanna talk to ya...."
these moments pretendding r geeting too long..one stupid question more and my emotionss would burst...
vinni i got smthn to talk to ya..yupss here c is..my chest swealss up with fakee victory f my ego....Vinni...This august...
august???wat's ths month doin btween us???
suddenly my tone frm being indifferent turnd into being inquistivee..ya...tell me i say...
this aug i am getting married.................................
WHat?What did you say??
i felt as if i was crushed under tonnnes of load..the roof f my apartment fell on me..fr fw secnds kudnt feel my pulse...
my heartbeat ..kant kal it heart beat..my heart swealling up and dwnn....gasping f air i control my wrdss..again givn space to my ego...
and try manipulating my wrdss...what..what did u say just nw....i kant blv me ears...wow..congats.....

u made my day..but deep in my heart i knew ki my life was ruined...

Congats ****** congats......

i must hv said ths wrd approx 10-12 timess as if standin in her reception...."So" one wrd which gvs ya ample amount f tim whn ya gt nthn to say..
So...
vinni..........
now....wat again ths silence but ths time silence was frm my side.....Lik a 2 yr kid who’s gt lots to say..bt words aren’t enugh...

now wat....oki ****** take kare..keep smilin.....and all the best ...
my fingers rushing towars the red button on my cell...wait vinni... wait..i hear her voice
no..why ...wat has she gt to say nw....
ya ****** ........Vinni wont u say anythng......
ys i will.........i have to say smthn now..should i say that i love her....no no..it would sond odd now........no no..i reply back

i just wntd to tell ya that i miss u..i miss u with every breath i take..i miss u...and i ..i mean to say....dnt get me wrong..i lik you.....i feel you are the picture perfect..
you are soo sweet and he must b th lukiest chap n earth...cnvey my reagrds to him...kant say more ******...
i knew i gt to make an excuse..and for the first tim almighty favourinngg me ....****** my mobu’s battery gettin low..oki take kare..keep smilin..cngtss..
vinni..i hear her say....i belive that few people have it in their voice..it getss speciall....when she says my name....i mean my name never ever sounds so sweet...
overcomming the ocean of emotionss i reply.....ya! haan bol! Muniyaa....(guys! Hav an entire vocab of odd names with which they address their mate ) muniyaa..ya ths is the name which irritates her a lot...and deliberatelly i used to call her muniyaa...bt now i shouldn’t have used it but as one fy freind says..“Habits! dnt change overnight“....

Hoping that she didn’t pay attention to the name i continue but wait! Wait! This time she didnt get irritated also with the name....i guess now i could virtually see the bond of our realtion fadin awayyy...
Haan......bol ****** ....
She says: vinni!
Oh! God...i wanaa hear hera gain sayiing vinni....i reply back ..helooooo helllooooooooo...cant hear you...receiver away from my mouth..
Trick worked...i hear her voice...vinni vinni..vinni r u there....
Ya ****** i kan hear you.....

Vinni i gt smthn to tell ya....................she goes silent and as you know silence froma gal means she got lots to say...
My Pentium 8 starts running and speculating...what would she say...Oh Gosh! Will she say that she feels the same for me........? or may b she would ask the general question that“will you come to my marraige and all“?? or may b that pending “sorry“.....

Shhhhhhhhhh...sweet bells beginss to ring...vinni...“You are the best guy i have ever seen and the gal you would marry would be the lukiest gal on planet!.You were..you are and you will alwyss b there my best freind....“

Tuuunn tuuunnn..............cell gets switched off............smtimess these non living thingss...like my nokia mobile..i guess undersatnd human emotions better and take suitable action ...

My eyes getting wet ....no i dnt.. i dnt wana cry for a gal..i dnt wana cry infront f my freindss....i will have to controll..i turn around...
Areey! Woh mobile...arrey....aaj kal mobile bhi na.....’woh sorry bol hi raahhi thii ki.........“
One by one they start movin away..patting at my shouldersss..........

I was there standn alone in my room...i thout everything in my room.....my walls.....my after shave lotion.......the chairsss,,,the table.....roomies anti-pimple cream...everyy thng stariing at me....
Lauginn sracasticaallyy ..repettinng her last wrdssss.......

“You are the best guy i have ever seen and the gal you would marry would be the lukiest gal on planet!!You were..you are and you will alwyss b there my best freind....“

I kant satnd it i close my eyes pulling the blankett on my face.....tearss rolling from my eyess.......“Why cant she be that lukkyy gal“???????



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